The reason for my absence, albeit it sounds a tad dramatic, is that for the past couple of months, I could not stand to think nor write about running. It pains me. It’s been several months since I stopped pounding the pavement and it gives me a heavy heart whenever I see someone on the road doing just that.
Since my Merrell training when I noticed my back pain worsening, I stopped running. The desire is there, but the body just would not let go. I kept hoping to wake up someday to find the pain gone, but everyday when I open my eyes, the first thing I notice is the pain. Despite my abstinence from running, it never did go away.
So I decided to face it once and for all. Face the pain and actively seek treatment. I cannot continue denying this condition, since it is stopping me from doing what I love.
I am starting conservative treatments first–acupuncture and deep tissue massage. Hot water compress every night. Back strengthening exercises whenever I can. Yoga/pilates twice a week.
If all else fails, I would have to save up for an MRI, since the orthopedist I had consulted months ago could not arrive at a diagnosis. Then maybe physical therapy.
I foresee months of rehabilitation. Looking at the schedule of runs in the Philippines, I could only regret that I did not seek treatment sooner, and feel envious of the people who are free to pursue their love of running.
But then I take heart in the fact that next year, around this time, I may be back in the starting line again, ready to race with others, and most importantly, to race against myself.
it's nice to be reading a new post here again. as for the injury and the pain, it's good you have decided to "face it once and for all." don't worry, the roads and the races won't be going anywhere. they will be there waiting for this runner to really get back in the fold.
caloy! good to see new posts in your blog as well. i really miss running and i hope it's not too late!
it never is…
Aleah,<br /><br />As caloyb states, it is very good to see a post here despite the nature of its read. I am glad that you have decided to act accordingly on your issues. I wish you the best and the races are waiting for you. I love how you put racing against yourself at the end. Take care running buddy. Get well soon, as I will be praying for you.
Retta Sheard says
Hi. I read a few of your other posts and wanted to know if you would be interested in exchanging blogroll links?