What’s meant to be will find a way.
Right after the adidas National Finals yesterday (July 1), my running buddies and I had breakfast at MaySum Mabini (previously known as Maxim’s). I was a bit down in the dumps—I wasn’t able to meet my goal of setting a new PR that day. I felt strong when the race began, and I thought my pace was good; however, it definitely was not enough to beat my PR.
We talked a bit about my friend’s unexpectedly getting a 10-year, multiple-entry U.S. visa for the first time, and I mentioned that it was meant to be; he was meant to get it that day. After all, everyone knows that some U.S. consul deny visa applications as a matter of course. My friends looked askance at me—how come I believe in such nonsense? Do I mean that my poor time in the race is also “meant to be”?
I do believe in fate, that there are some things that are beyond our control. However, my performance in adidas was not beyond my control. I had a choice, and I chose to do poorly. I trained only intermittently—finding a hundred and one reasons not to get up and lace my New Balance 660s. Sometimes I was amazed at the number of excuses I could come up with—it was raining, I had slept only a few hours the night before, it was already too hot, I had to work on my racket, I was sleepy, ad infinitum. So, yeah, due to my own actions, my poor performance was meant to be.
Anyway, going home from Maxim’s (or rather, MaySum’s), I vowed to do better next time. There’s a TaraRun 15k race in UP Diliman on July 16, the Q.C. Red Cross Fun Run on August 5, and the UP Diliman 10K Run on August 22. (An aside: There was a poor showing of female runners in last year’s Q.C. Red Cross because of strong rains. As a result, I was in the top 7. O ha! No one can say I don’t run competitively! I place only when there are less than 20 female runners participating. ;þ)
James Allen said, “You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you.”
So there. I hope my thoughts will take me to the finish line, in 50 minutes!